im crying my best
what went wrong?
i was happy with my life. i found peace. i enjoyed every moment that passes by. i thought i got my shit together. at work and personal life. and then suddenly, life started going downhill. I have terrible acne. worse i ever had in my whole 24 years of existing. to the point that my mom nags at me. period came late. 12 days and still counting. was never this late before. i gained weight. i eat like shit and i feel like shit. well people do say you are what you eat. amirite? i eat junks like its nobodys businesss. i eat fast food every single day. i used to be on non sugary diet. i avoid sugary drinks and drink more plain water. i stopped eating cakes and chocolates and all kinds of dessert. i cut down on dairy products. and then i fuck it all up and started consuming them again ✨religously✨ i started drinking coffee in the morning and let it fucks with my system. getting coffee jitters at 2am and overthink every single thing in my life. i even fall for a guy and imagine a life with him. how petty and fuck up that is? i honestly dont even know how to get my shit together anymore. i’m done trying and ill let whatever flow, flows. one day i might be able to pull this through but as of now, lets just enjoy being messy. at 24.
coping differently.
Break up. Thats what I am going through. But this time, its different. Instead of crying, I am calm, Instead of being miserable, I am in peace. Instead of begging for them to stay, I let them go. Easily, as simple as saying okay to their request of wanting to split. And what I notice this time, this relationship, I no longer want to prove they are at loss for losing me. I am no longer desperate to show them that I am winning when I am losing. Instead, I am taking my own sweet time to face reality. To come to this realization that I am once again, Alone. But I am happy. I am content. I am grateful. I realize my worth. And that is not in begging for someone to stay. Instead, my worth is being happy with myself. I do feel lonely. For all the times that I always have someone to go back to. This time, I only have myself. But I am Okay.
i’m writing it down here so i wont forget this experience. I tried logging in to my blogger account but I forgot my password :((
Also, this is my way of letting go.
Ive interviewed for Sony EMCS Bangi a couple of weeks back. 2 weeks to be exact.
Ill start off on how I scored an interview. Initially, I saw a post on Sony EMCS recruitment profile on Linked In about a vacancy in E&E Design Engineer. I emailed them my application and got an invitation for an interview the next day via phone call.
Sony Hiring Manager then emailed me the details of the interview (Position role, Address, Time etc) to which I replied to confirm my attendance (always do this okie guys dont ghost anyone especially recruiters)
Fast forward to the interview day, there was 5 of us and i was the only girl. A kind HR rep led us into a meeting room for us to fill out recruitment form and attach our certs along with a formal passport picture.
Then, we were lead to another meeting room where we will have our tests. It consist of 4 tests each allocated a time.
1-Electrical theory test
2-IQ test (40 Qs)
3-Statistics/Maths test (40 Qs)
4-English Test (60 Qs)
I forgot exactly the time for each test but it was roughly 20 mins for each test except for English test which was about 30 mins.
Electrical theory test was a 2 part test. Where Part A you need to answer all questions and it was a calculation question about current, voltage, Op-amp gain. Please bring your calculator. I didnt bring mine so I had to share with this guy from Unikl BMI. Part B is a design question and you only need to choose 1 question to answer. I remember I chose a power supply design question where I need to draw the circuit.
IQ test is basically an MCQ test where you predict the next pattern on the set of question.
Statistic/Maths test is the usual maths MCQ question where you calculate percentage, currency etc.
and lastly, English test is an MCQ that will test your understanding about the given paragraph.
During the test, HR rep will call out your name in group to have the interview session. So, those who are chosen will stop their test and continue after the interview.
During my time, 2 of the guy were chosen first to go to the interview session. We were interviewed by 1 HR, 1 power supply team engineer, 1 image quality engineer and 1 other engineer to which I forgot his position.
The three of us were asked to
1-Introduce ourself
2-Tell your experience during internship
3-Explain your FYP
4-Where do you see yourself in 5 years
And finally, I got a second interview right after the first one!! along with this one guy who sat next to me.
Second interview starts at 2pm so we were given time to eat at Sony cafe (it was huge and theres even a japanese section!!)
Second interview was an individual session with all the interviewer from the first IV + another engineer guy. During this time, only the other engineer guy ask me questions. And he asked me about the same question as the first IV and more that is:
1- what do you do in your free time explain why
2-what are your long term goals
3-which do you prefer, power supply or picture quality
4-If it was a contract position would you agree
Right after the iv, I was told to do a medical check up in their clinic. This was because I came all the way from KK to bangi for the interview, and for the case that I got in, we would skip the hassle of going back and forth for a medical check up.
Its been two weeks now and I have sent 2 follow up emails. To which the latest one was replied that I was unfortunately unsuccessful.
But alls good. This is my act of letting go after weeks of hoping, praying and waiting.
I scored another interview with Motorola, Penang earlier today (to when this post was written) and thats for another time to tell ;)
Hope this blogpost is helpful to those that got an interview session with Sony EMCS Bangi.
Also, I would like to give credit to Mr Harraz for his blogpost here, and his response to a bunch of questions that I asked when I reached out to him.
